WW3

Robby & "TA first weren't coming home last night. They text AnnaD to let her know this which of course upset her. They didn't bother to tell me, but Stacie did once she knew which was around 9 or after. AnnaD was very upset about this and I found out today that later on she called her mom and discovered that mom and Robby were sitting at Patrick's, her brother, along with Benny the other brother and their women and drinking and having a good time. This upset AnnaD and she got upset with mom again who said Robby was the one who didn't want to come home. So, for whatever reason, Robby and TA came in later last night.

This morning I woke to find the horse in my back yard. I sent them both a text, then noticed the truck on the other side of the shed so I went to the shed and told them in person. They both got up and put the horse in and started working on the pen. I went to work. Bob came over as he has every day for 2 weeks to use the phone. He has applied for food stamps and was approved and is trying to get in touch with the lady with SW Mississippi Opportunity to get help paying his utility bill. His phone is shut off so he comes to use mine. Normally he doesn't bother me but today, maybe because of Robby's behavior yesterday, I was on edge and truly thought if he didn't shut up and leave I would scream. Finally he left to go get ready to go see the woman since he couldn't reach her on the phone. Shortly afterward she called and so I had to run a message over to him. Of course he was locked up in the house and didn't hear me banging on the door, so I left his note in the truck. He found it when he started to town, came back by the store and called the lady. Then he sits down and slowly, detail by detail tells me that she said he could bring the paperwork by this morning since she would be there a while longer. Finally I asked him why he wasn't already on his way. LOL He left.

Then we get ready to leave and Stacie tells me that TA says, See she gets so upset over nothing--referring to me being upset because I didn't know they left the night before, i didn't know they weren't coming home and I was upset over a stupid horse in my yard. So I have Terry drive me up there and I tell her that--if she has a problem keeping me posted on her coming and going then 1. start paying rent and utilities and 2. don't leave your children with me; 3. if you think a horse in your back yard is no big issue then get your place and let him stomp around in your back yard. I also tell her that after today, I will not expect anyone to come help me because if I can't do it myself then it won't get done. I started this business and I will see it through to the end. With that I left.

So to the doctor--He has spoken to two specialists in the field of my particular disease. They say that 1. the same bacteria that is in my lungs is in my stomach and with acid reflux I keep giving it back to myself. Treat the acid reflux. This will help a lot
2. Open up the lungs so that I can cough up this stuff to help me remove it that way until such a time as funds are available to treat me IV wise. he got his list of the drug sensitivities and showed me that the ones I might could take are either inhaled or IV and both are super expensive. He wants a CT with contrast scan in November to compare the disease between last year and this year to know whether we need to become more agressive in treating it or not. He gave me a month's worth of my Spireva, another inhaler to take twice daily, a rescue inhaler for when I simply have no air and two meds to put into a nebulizer along with the mouthpiece and tubing for the nebulizer since I will be borrowing James's until I get one. The doctor is going to see if I am approved for a free one. His nurse will let me know. He says he will keep me in free meds and all I have to do is drive over and get them. He said to watch my weight, make sure I don't lose weight and keep a check on my temp to be sure I am not running low grade fever. I forgot to buy a new thermometer today but will get me one.

We stopped by Bed, Bath and Beyond since Terry had not ever been there. I got a new cutting board and a corner shelf for the shower. On the way to Columbia Robby called. he needed me to call Ana and have her unlock the door at Stacie's, seems Anna D had locked herself in at Stacie's and wouldn't come out. I talked to Anastasia and learned mom had told her to not open the door since she and CJ were at CJ's grandmas, so I told Anastasia to talk to Robby and explain that to him.

By the time we hit Walmart, Stacie and CJ were home, someone had called the law and they were on their way. We ran in WM and got what we needed right quick and as we hit Foxworth Robby called back with, "Well they law is coming and I will probably be arrested." I said, "I am sorry to hear that son." Well, he says, you don't act like you give a F'ing damn. I said, "Well son, I care, but there is nothing I can do. Nothing I have done for the past 3 days has pleased you and I don't know what has crawled up everybody's butt and died but they need to expel it, say they are sorry and move on." He agreed and hung up.

So the law was at Stacie's when we drove up, but they only talked to AnnaD and the rest of them, TA and Robby. TA had left scratches on AnnaD trying to force her to do something--I don't know what as I wasn't here, thankfully. After the law left I had them all come to the house and I told them that they all needed to chill out and get along. As they walked out, AnnaD and Robby got into an argument as well as her mom over the cell phone. They took her phone away, so AnnaD takes the simn card out and put it in another one. Kids!!!!!!!!!!!!! They all argued back and forth for probably an hour until finally I walked to the shed and TA let me talk with AnnaD who was cowering in the bathroom crying her eyes out.

Come to find out the child has been on.............Adderol for ADHD, Zoloft for depression, Wellbutrin for depression and Buspar ?? for nerves I guess. She has been on that combo for 3 weeks and apparently it isn't doing it's thing. TA says the girls needs all these meds. All her kids are medicated. James I can understand, but Anna D I can't. Anywho, to my knowledge everyone is calm and the hill is at peace for the moment.

I have taken a xanax and I am at peace. I may have to take them regularly for a while since the meds I was given today have albutriol in them and it makes me very nervous feeling and more of a witch than I am already.

I'm worried about the exact details of what I qualified for, will it include Medicaid? or no. Will Terry get on full time with the county? What will I do with the nursery. The doc told me today that he wanted me to as physically active as I could be. I told him that he needn't worry, I couldn't sit on my butt and do nothing. He said, good, but if being around the dusts at the greenhouse bothers you, don't do it. If anything bothers your breathing, do not do it.

Hon, I know you have thought I was upset with you at times. Never. I know our phones, or mine anyway has been a patooty.....but in spite of all that, the above stuff I have written, especially the paragraph about jobs, insurance, greenhouse have weighed heavily on my mind. Add to that the drama these 3 extra families can create plus the drama our church family can cause and I feel weighed down by it all. I am so tired of either saying, I don't feel well or lying and saying, oh, I am just fine. I want to be really fine. I want to feel good and not feel so frustrated and helpless because my mind says let's do this and my body says...you can't be serious you fool!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So that was pretty much my day.
And how was yours? How is your back?
love you and thanks for reading if you made it this far.
Klara

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In three words I can sum up everything
I've learned about life:
It goes on.
--Robert Frost